Lyrics

  • I lose sleep considering all the ways
    I wear my responsibility
    My impact on a thing
    And how to respond accordingly

    I'm watching myself make a mess
    Hoping I don't yet understand
    Not knowing is the only way
    Despite what I had planned

    At what cost is clean?
    A little bit of dirty never hurt a living being
    I gotta let my hair down
    Free the wild one in me

    I'm watching myself make a mess
    Hoping I don't yet understand
    Not knowing is the only way
    Despite what I had planned

  • Let it lead you, let it follow, let it be
    An extension of your ego or of everything
    Do the dirt time, put the work in, make a meal
    Of the breadcrumbs you uncover that appeal

    After you sleep I’ll be nocturnal

    Take a back seat, click a button and enjoy
    Your abundance you can play with like a toy
    Have a blast forget what makes a human human
    God forbid we use the beast to find solutions

    After you sleep I’ll be nocturnal

  • I want to go away from the world
    I miss the days at a different pace
    I like to wonder
    I don't want to get to always choose convenience
    I wanna know how to go the hard way

    I'm not saying it's wrong
    but I don't want any of it
    You can keep going on
    but I don't want any of it

    I want to know people and the planet
    keep your machines and how you've planned it
    I trust the mosses and the chickadee
    to know how freedom ought to be
    tell me how it goes in your reality

    I'm not saying it's wrong
    but I don't want any of it
    You can keep going on
    but I don't want any of it

Lyrics

  • I’d be okay if I never had to speak again
    I’d be okay if the only way I could share
    Was singing a song to capture the heart of it
    I’d be okay if I never spoke again 

  • Nourishment is a rare bird in these times
    Wings out wide nuzzled into what’s good
    Held like a warm bath surrender
    This is what this life is about
    I’m no longer tempted by shoulds

    You warm me from the inside out
    From the outside in

    I belong to this body. I belong to delight
    The laundry list of what I have to do
    Just a little less vital to my time
    Than taking hot clothes out the dryer
    And laying under them, too

    You warm me from the inside out
    From the outside in

    Rest with me
    Undress ideas on how we’re supposed to be 
    In a world that's full of uncertainty
    Let’s indulge in a little jubilee

    You warm me from the inside out
    From the outside in

  • There’s a penny in the dryer rattling
    Hard metal on metal
    It pulls my attention erratically 
    And I know it’ll go until I shape things to move differently

    The energy it takes to figure out how it's gonna go
    A million ways
    Spare your mind the chase
    Do what there is to do and be done with it

    Rumination and crawling skin
    My misguided helpers
    As useful as breaking a sweat 
    Trying to catch the wind

    The energy it takes to figure out how it's gonna go
    A million ways
    Spare your mind the chase
    Do what there is to do and be done with it

  • Once upon a time they sat across the table 
    Giddy smiles, twinkled eyes
    Unable to contain their love
    Years unwind them now stiff in silence

    Dripping wax on candlesticks
    They bought on their first trip away
    She bites her lip, takes a breath
    And waits for him to swallow
    To tell him she's ready for divorce

    I can't imagine what you face cuz I've only had a taste
    This one's for the heartbreak
    The pain when the heart ain't where the home is
    Begging for a new way when home is a four letter word

    The kids at school know their name and whisper pointing
    They know themself by puzzled looks and endless searching 
    For how to be in a body they were born to
    They change their name, tape their breasts and muster courage
    Over again to tell each friend who they’re becoming
    Even though they've been it at along

    I can't imagine what you face cuz I've only had a taste
    This one's for the heartbreak the pain
    When the heart ain't where the home is
    Begging for a new way when home is a four letter word

    We are tender human beings
    being human different ways
    We can love by listening
    We can learn by listening

  • The cold of new Winter is shocking and clean
    The fog in the doug firs, a moonlit sheen
    I’ve got myself bundled remembering the breathe

    The turn of the seasons so old and so new 
    It cycles within me like flowers between blooms
    I forget every year that the birds go south too

    Still every year
    It’s like I’m getting to know you for the first time

  • Your lower lip is thick
    With all the kisses that you've ever given before me
    I get the gift of where you've been before me
    How love has shaped you
    How you shape your lips to meet mine

    I want to be a student of you
    And you don't need the right answers
    But I've got questions for lifetimes
    Maybe a lifetime with you

    Your hands are big with all you've held before me
    And all you've touched, all you've received before me
    Complete with scars, I've got a few too
    Let's mend what isn't fully healed together

    I want to be a student of you
    And you don't need the right answers
    But I've got questions for lifetimes
    Maybe this lifetime with you

    I don't want the time to tell 
    What makes this worthwhile
    Whether tomorrow or in withered grey
    I'm in it for the ride

    I want to be a student of you
    And you don't need the right answers
    But I've got questions for lifetimes
    Maybe a lifetime with you

  • When the acorn falls from the oak
    A severance from hanging ease
    Hits the ground hard and broken
    With the Earth tomorrow's tree

    There's power in falling apart
    Let your tears pour wild and free
    You're alive to the calling in your heart
    You're watering your seeds

    Inching forward to chrysalis 
    Where everything evolves
    Vibrant wings and graceful bliss
    Come after the dissolve

    There's power in falling apart
    Let your tears pour wild and free
    You're alive to the calling in your heart
    You're watering your seeds

    Like an October tree
    Parts of you are ripe, parts of you are dying
    In Spring new life will pull from the decay
    Fruit will ripen from the rain

    There's power in falling apart
    Let your tears pour wild and free
    You're alive to the calling in your heart
    You're watering your seeds

  • We held our smiles behind shifty eyes
    To let you ride out your fairy tale
    What kind of friend would impose their piece of mind
    And disrupt by lifting up your veil?

    All in good time you’ll see what’s clear
    It’s okay you didn’t see it then
    Hindsight is 2020 every time
    It’s okay it’s a reminder
    We really need each other
    To help us see our blind spots

    On second thought ours is the kind of love
    Where we say the hard thing and tell it like it is
    You’d do the same for me
    And I’d love you more than I ever did
    What more is friendship for than this? 

    All in good time you’ll see what’s clear
    It’s okay you didn’t see it then
    Hindsight is 2020 every time
    It’s okay it’s a reminder
    We really need each other
    To help us see our blind spots

    I sing this song for me sometimes
    You’re not the only one
    Who learns by making a mistake or two

    It’s okay you didn’t see it then
    Hindsight is 2020 every time
    It’s okay it’s a reminder
    We really need each other
    To help us see our blind spots

  • There’s riots in the streets
    People standing up for people
    The ones with darker skin are getting hurt directly
    But no one’s out of harm when only certain people bleed

    They bought and sold the forest
    Greed can turn a person against their very breath
    In lines and boxes, screens and toxins
    We bury our trash in our mother
    There’s wild land here
    We’ll sit in the old growth and listen

    How do I explain to you?

    Piles of food are thrown away
    All the while empty bodies hunger
    Good people slave just to get by
    But there’s no scarcity
    Just an unfit myth of separation

    I hope that it will change before you get here

    Oh child it can be bleak out there
    But there’s enough of us who never give up on care
    That won’t change when you get here

    Oh by the firelight
    I’ll tell you stories of a different time

  • There's nothing that's ever been 
    Or will ever be wrong with you
    Sometimes we just get off track
    It's human to do things 
    Where we don't recognize ourselves
    What matters is how we get back
    To who we really are

    I have a radical dream
    That every human being
    Is exactly how they're supposed to be

    There's nothing to prove
    Just find your own groove 
    Enjoy yourself
    Cuz you've got a lot to give
    It's easy to see where we're lacking and judge ourselves
    Do you see how far you've come?
    That's who you you really are

    I have a radical dream
    That every human being
    Is exactly how they're supposed to be

    I know you're hungry to be better
    Acknowledge yourself right here exactly as you are
    There's nothing you need to grasp
    Or achieve to belong or believe
    You already have exactly what you need

    I have a radical dream
    That every human being
    Is exactly how they're supposed to be

    There’s nothing that’s ever been or will ever be wrong

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When I finish a new song, I record a one-take video of me playing it in my living room as a way to celebrate and mark its completion, to invite people into my creative process, and to normalize imperfection.

 
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